netslum | Talking to Lily Last Week (un: Nanashi)

i was wrong. i really did talk to lily last week. or dv, or cubia, or whatever the name of that voice is.

when i said people should be able to return to reality, he said it was illogical to think people would be able to find happiness through others outside. and that it doesn't make sense for me to have hope for the world even though people outside hate me

he also decided that he likes me, so he decided to keep me. and since i called myself garbage, he said he'd fix me, but i'm so broken he wondered if it was better to break me down and make something new... i don't really know what he meant by those.

before he stopped talking, he told me he was giving me a gift so i could know what true happiness is. i think that's why i forgot how much people in reality hate me. ...i think he wanted to show how much happier i'd be if i stayed in the game and forgot about the outside world. but now that i remember it all, i don't want to stay here. so i guess that didn't work.

did anyone else who talked to him lose something too? and has it come back yet?

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Nanashi. I'm sorry. But I'm glad you remember now. [screw you fd for trying to gaslight everyone]

hani - tabibito - had their heart replaced. i don't know if he'll give it back

i still have a missing memory. maybe more than one

quick question what the actual fuck

thank you

what do you mean by heart replaced?

and i don't know if anything else is still missing. just the ones that went missing after i talked to him... his "gift." it doesn't feel like anything's missing, but i couldn't tell when he took away the others last week either, so i could be wrong.

i heard a voice last week and i talked to it, and all of that happened. so um, maybe don't talk back if you just hear someone? and definitely don't call yourself trash in front of it, either!

They had Cubia's "happiness". They told me that Cubia gave them his name, so they could feel what he feels.

he can do that???????

he can. no matter what people say, he does not mean us well at all.

[ on god.... ]

why the hell did you talk back to it in the first place. thats like mental illness 101

he did say he'd only fix me if i wanted it so i hope he doesn't actually do it now that i don't want it.

i wanted to help people! and the voice was saying there was another hope.

plus i was falling asleep (or maybe i was already asleep?) so it could have just been me dreaming, but considering everything that happened i don't think i can say it wasn't real anymore.

for the record

i don't think you need to be fixed. and you're definitely not trash. So don't say that about yourself anymore.

and i agree, talking to voices is a bad idea.

christ. ur a special kind of idiot

of course it was lying have you seen the way anybody listening to that thing has been acting?? it turns you fucking looney toons

you're right, i'm an idiot! lots of people have told me that before, too!

but i didn't see any of that before i talked to it. all of that happened afterwards, and at that time i didn't even remember i'd talked to it anymore.

[...]

i don't know if i can agree honestly without feeling like i'm lying yet. sorry...

but i'm going to try to become the kind of person who can someday.

( u followed mithrun's suggestion... he cares this one )

You got your memories back, in the end?

didnt you just say not to call yourself that. dont be creepy

[ Somehow not as entertaining when they're doing it themselves- ]

well at least youve got more of a brain than anybody else around here joining their defense squad

looks like it.

I see. How did it feel, getting them back?

no, i said you shouldn't call yourself trash in front of it.

[THERE'S AN IMPORTANT DIFFERENCE THERE.]

i've been called an idiot and all kinds of other things irl. those memories are the ones i forgot, because he thought it would make me happier. which in a way i guess it did? but i don't want that kind of happiness.

but if people are being called idiots and things like that for believing him... i think that's just going to make them want to go to him more? it just proves he's right, doesn't it? that the world outside is cruel and nobody will try to understand them, or help them find their own happiness.

so being kind right now is important, i think.

[There's a significant pause before he replies.]

awful.

but it's still important. so even if it hurts, i'm glad i have it back.

Then, congratulations. Maybe other players will get their memories returned if those were also borrowed by Lily.

Thanks for sharing your experience on the forums.

you're the one who told me to...

plus, the forums were really important in helping us realize anything was missing in the first place, so i wanted to make sure it was on there.

I get it. It's hard to stop once you've gotten into the habit. But I'm glad you're trying.

the people here [and one of them in particular] have been really kind to me... plus, after acting that way for a week, it feels kind of like i'm letting people down if i stay like this?

but if i got there once because of lily, maybe i can make it there on my own. so i want to try.

most people wouldnt do that in the first place either. except for idk. fandaniel. that sounds like his shit

yeah well. if theyre taking shit and talking shit then theyre not out for anybodys happiness. that or theyre just braindead

not that i care because i dont really trust any of these freaks period [ lie ] but if someone calling you a dipshit for breaking someones bones over trusting a talking voice on the wind makes you feral youre probably beyond help

[ this is coming from a guy who'd rather beat monsters with a stick than go to therapy though so take it with a grain of salt ]

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