Talking to Lily Last Week (un: Nanashi)

[justonezero]

i was wrong. i really did talk to lily last week. or dv, or cubia, or whatever the name of that voice is.

when i said people should be able to return to reality, he said it was illogical to think people would be able to find happiness through others outside. and that it doesn't make sense for me to have hope for the world even though people outside hate me

he also decided that he likes me, so he decided to keep me. and since i called myself garbage, he said he'd fix me, but i'm so broken he wondered if it was better to break me down and make something new... i don't really know what he meant by those.

before he stopped talking, he told me he was giving me a gift so i could know what true happiness is. i think that's why i forgot how much people in reality hate me. ...i think he wanted to show how much happier i'd be if i stayed in the game and forgot about the outside world. but now that i remember it all, i don't want to stay here. so i guess that didn't work.

did anyone else who talked to him lose something too? and has it come back yet?

Comments

[justonezero]

you're the one who told me to...

plus, the forums were really important in helping us realize anything was missing in the first place, so i wanted to make sure it was on there.

[tablescraps]

I know, but you still didn't have to. So... thanks.

Do you think you were happier without your memories? Or did your feelings ring hollow?/span>

[justonezero]

i was definitely happier

but there were other factors that would have made me sad even without all of the other memories.

[tablescraps]

Like what?

[justonezero]

like not being able to see people who want to return to the real world.

or feeling like i was holding them back if they decided to stay because of me.

[tablescraps]

Would you change your choice if you thought you couldn't return to the real world, in the end?

[justonezero]

no. i really want to go back.

so i'm going to keep trying to find a way out. even if it doesn't look like it's possible right now.

[tablescraps]

( It would be easier not to struggle against an impossible cause, but he doesn't see the purpose in wasting his breath on arguing over whether something is impossible or not - if it really is inevitable, then there's no need for Mithrun to defend it. )

Don't hurt yourself trying to struggle.

Hector is back, but you're still the only player healer.

[justonezero]

huh? hector's another player too!

[tablescraps]

( ah, )

He is. I've been a little disoriented lately. It's hard to keep track of the players here.

[justonezero]

that doesn't sound good...

how recent is lately?

[tablescraps]

Since the meeting... but especially the past few days. It's not like I don't remember them, but it's hard keeping track of some names and faces.

[justonezero]

did anything else happen around then?

[tablescraps]

( A pause. )

Not long before the meeting, I spoke to Lily, too.

[justonezero]

do you remember what he said?

un: faunus

[bleatingedge]

i'm not an actual healer

but the armor i got recently has improved my supportive aspects immensely

so i guess you can add me to that list?

please don't overdo it, nanashi

if you need to take a break, just let me know and i can swap out with you

[justonezero]

that would be really really really good

[tablescraps]

It might be useful to have a list of players with healing options on the forums. It seems like a lot of word of mouth information is getting lost, so people are looking to the forums more often as reference.

Here's who I know. Tell me if there's anyone I missed.

Harvest Cleric (Healing-focused; can also replenish SP)
Nanashi
Hector

Wavemaster (Minor healing)
tabibito
Brambles
Faunus*
L3V147H4N (Adept Rogue)
Anaido (Adept Rogue)

Macabre Dancer (Minor healing)
Ganymede
Owen
PinkPilgrim
L3V147H4N (Adept Rogue)

*Support capabilities boosted.

( ooc: Mithrun hasn't met Subaru to know, but Subaru is a Wavemaster as well! )

[sicklysweet]

[why are people TALKING ABOUT HIM,]

my current gear means i'm far more useful for buffing and debuffing than i am healing, but i think about three people in this game have realized that there's more to party composition than healing a booboo and stabbing or blasting a goblin.

[bleatingedge]

i think more people realize that than you think

besides mithrun was just trying to be helpful

[sicklysweet]

mithrun can be helpful without volunteering me

[tablescraps]

Feel free to buff someone's magic attack when they're on the verge of death. I'm sure they'll find it useful.

[sicklysweet]

and then they’ll step in fire and die

[justonezero]

thanks for the list!

[bleatingedge]

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