Talking to Lily Last Week (un: Nanashi)

[justonezero]

i was wrong. i really did talk to lily last week. or dv, or cubia, or whatever the name of that voice is.

when i said people should be able to return to reality, he said it was illogical to think people would be able to find happiness through others outside. and that it doesn't make sense for me to have hope for the world even though people outside hate me

he also decided that he likes me, so he decided to keep me. and since i called myself garbage, he said he'd fix me, but i'm so broken he wondered if it was better to break me down and make something new... i don't really know what he meant by those.

before he stopped talking, he told me he was giving me a gift so i could know what true happiness is. i think that's why i forgot how much people in reality hate me. ...i think he wanted to show how much happier i'd be if i stayed in the game and forgot about the outside world. but now that i remember it all, i don't want to stay here. so i guess that didn't work.

did anyone else who talked to him lose something too? and has it come back yet?

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[glassbell]

He said something about wanting to save us, whether people believe it or not. However, he wasn't sure about saving someone who doesn't seem to have the will to live... And I was very worn out by everything that happened a week ago.

From what I do remember because it's sequential, I had a good memory that helped with overcoming a bad memory, but I lost the good memory, which is a "core" memory. He said those core memories will eventually be taken away from us by being here.

I agreed to give it up because I do want to live. Just... not burdened by some unburied trauma.

[ With all due respect for all the really nice people here, there aren't nearly enough resources in a messed up virtual world to deal with that. ]

[threatmewted]

[...]

There wasn't anyone you could talk to?

[glassbell]

[ ... ]

They're like a childhood friend if online ones count, and from a precious time in my life.

I just... couldn't let them see me like that. It's from a part of my life they never got to see, so I wanted to protect that old friendship, even when I didn't care about protecting myself.

[threatmewted]

You should tell them.

We all need to lean on each other here or we're all going to go crazy from stress.

[glassbell]

I really should, I probably seem the type who's easily distracted from bad things.

I think I know what's going to happen the longer we're here, and I should tell them about that too.

[ Spicy dessert... ]

[threatmewted]

[Cool!

Now that that convo is over she's just going to have a quick cry somewhere before he gets around to finding her.]

[glassbell]

[ Good news is that she can end this charade thanks to Mithrun's meddling, so maybe there will be less future pain.

Maybe. ]

[threatmewted]

[Mithrun how could you betray her like this]