Talking to Lily Last Week (un: Nanashi)

[justonezero]

i was wrong. i really did talk to lily last week. or dv, or cubia, or whatever the name of that voice is.

when i said people should be able to return to reality, he said it was illogical to think people would be able to find happiness through others outside. and that it doesn't make sense for me to have hope for the world even though people outside hate me

he also decided that he likes me, so he decided to keep me. and since i called myself garbage, he said he'd fix me, but i'm so broken he wondered if it was better to break me down and make something new... i don't really know what he meant by those.

before he stopped talking, he told me he was giving me a gift so i could know what true happiness is. i think that's why i forgot how much people in reality hate me. ...i think he wanted to show how much happier i'd be if i stayed in the game and forgot about the outside world. but now that i remember it all, i don't want to stay here. so i guess that didn't work.

did anyone else who talked to him lose something too? and has it come back yet?

Comments

[glassbell]

I don't remember the memory but I'm gonna assume it was very distracting at least. For right now, I am doing alright. But I know I'm not complete, I was willing to throw away a bit of myself for it.

[justonezero]

you wouldn't prefer to have all your memories back instead?

[glassbell]

ideally, I'd like them all back, yes.

You made a choice like that?

[justonezero]

i don't think i did... or at least, i didn't know that was the choice i was making?

i'm glad you haven't given up on your memories, though.

[glassbell]

I'll cherish what I have. It's not like I want to make a new life here when it's almost killed me.

[justonezero]

good.

that's good.