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netslum2023-10-17 04:40 pm
justonezero) wrote in netslum2023-10-17 04:40 pm
Talking to Lily Last Week (un: Nanashi)
i was wrong. i really did talk to lily last week. or dv, or cubia, or whatever the name of that voice is.
when i said people should be able to return to reality, he said it was illogical to think people would be able to find happiness through others outside. and that it doesn't make sense for me to have hope for the world even though people outside hate me
he also decided that he likes me, so he decided to keep me. and since i called myself garbage, he said he'd fix me, but i'm so broken he wondered if it was better to break me down and make something new... i don't really know what he meant by those.
before he stopped talking, he told me he was giving me a gift so i could know what true happiness is. i think that's why i forgot how much people in reality hate me. ...i think he wanted to show how much happier i'd be if i stayed in the game and forgot about the outside world. but now that i remember it all, i don't want to stay here. so i guess that didn't work.
did anyone else who talked to him lose something too? and has it come back yet?
when i said people should be able to return to reality, he said it was illogical to think people would be able to find happiness through others outside. and that it doesn't make sense for me to have hope for the world even though people outside hate me
he also decided that he likes me, so he decided to keep me. and since i called myself garbage, he said he'd fix me, but i'm so broken he wondered if it was better to break me down and make something new... i don't really know what he meant by those.
before he stopped talking, he told me he was giving me a gift so i could know what true happiness is. i think that's why i forgot how much people in reality hate me. ...i think he wanted to show how much happier i'd be if i stayed in the game and forgot about the outside world. but now that i remember it all, i don't want to stay here. so i guess that didn't work.
did anyone else who talked to him lose something too? and has it come back yet?
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although i guess it probably would change me...
they're important because they're times i spent with people important to me
because those people are precious to me, so are my memories of them
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would they stop being precious to you if you forgot them? you're saying they would, right, so are they even all that important to you if you don't think you could make a future with someone you've forgotten?
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the memories are precious to me because they're in them
without the memories they would still be precious to me. but i don't want to forget all the time we spent together, too.
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memories are intangible, ephemeral things. you will never be able to remember something exactly as it once was, and eventually you will not remember the time spent with those you care about.
what does it matter if the memory loss happens now or later? it's inevitable. that's just how life is. humans don't retain information for their entire lives in perfect clarity.
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even if i can't remember it forever, i don't want someone else to take it before it fades on its own