Talking to Lily Last Week (un: Nanashi)

[justonezero]

i was wrong. i really did talk to lily last week. or dv, or cubia, or whatever the name of that voice is.

when i said people should be able to return to reality, he said it was illogical to think people would be able to find happiness through others outside. and that it doesn't make sense for me to have hope for the world even though people outside hate me

he also decided that he likes me, so he decided to keep me. and since i called myself garbage, he said he'd fix me, but i'm so broken he wondered if it was better to break me down and make something new... i don't really know what he meant by those.

before he stopped talking, he told me he was giving me a gift so i could know what true happiness is. i think that's why i forgot how much people in reality hate me. ...i think he wanted to show how much happier i'd be if i stayed in the game and forgot about the outside world. but now that i remember it all, i don't want to stay here. so i guess that didn't work.

did anyone else who talked to him lose something too? and has it come back yet?

Comments

[userunfriendly]

With all likelihood, I'm already dead in the real world. There's no point in deciding.

You've made up your mind?

[justonezero]

i'm sorry...

then, if you had a choice, which would you pick?

i want to go back to reality. because it isn't true that everyone hates me after all. so i want to meet the people who don't hate me.

but it makes sense when you think about it?

there's billions of people in the world. there has to be someone who wouldn't despise me. even if it was an incredibly small percentage of the world's population, there's still got to be some people! so they need to find me, or i need to find them. but i can't do that until i return to reality.

[userunfriendly]

The real world. If both deny my existence, I would have chosen the one that at least had to exert effort to overwrite my reality.

...The only flaw in your logic is the fact that it still requires sifting through the millions of people who hate you. And that with such overwhelming numbers, you could go an entire lifetime without meeting the one you're looking for.

[justonezero]

you're right. it's possible.

but

we already found people here, didn't we?

so that makes it easier to start from, i think

[userunfriendly]

Yes. If those few people in millions are enough for you, you can begin there.

[ And ordinarily, he would leave it there, with that admittedly nebulous affirmation. But the question itches at him, and he can't quite keep himself from asking— ]

Why do they hate you?

[justonezero]

because i'm always giving people what they want! some people think it's creepy, other people think it's pathetic, and others think it's great - and the people who think it's pathetic get into fights with the people who think it's great. and then they all get mad because i don't mind it.

and other people just think i'm creepy because of my looks or the way i act.

[Some people really did try to stop him from being a doormat, just to get frustrated when he wouldn't even help himself out of being taken advantage of. rip.]

[userunfriendly]

[ What. What kind of reason even... ]

Unless you changed your avatar design substantially, I fail to see what part is 'creepy.'

Has it occurred to you that by attempting to give everyone what they want, you're satisfying none of them? Or was that the intent?

[justonezero]

no, i just wanted to help them!

but i guess it came across as abnormal... it's weird that i didn't expect anything back, or mind if they disliked me

[userunfriendly]

Unusual, certainly...

From another angle, not minding if someone dislikes you is the same as saying you consider their contempt beneath you. Like internet trolls.

[justonezero]

they aren't beneath me!

if anything i'm beneath them!!

[userunfriendly]

And why would you think that?

[justonezero]

[No response because he can't think of a way to answer that isn't going to upset Deto..........]

[userunfriendly]

[ You better run, you ridiculous rabbit!! ]

Not here

[insinning]

[...he's messaging Winter NOW]

[ganymed]

no you're not.

[ crying ]

[userunfriendly]

[ Ah. Oops...? ]

Neither of us can prove it in either direction. There's no meaning to debating it... or worrying about it.

[ganymed]

N O

[ That's all Michel is getting. Help

No further responses but there's going to be screaming and sounds of stuff being thrown in Fine Wine in his room nonstop for hours so I guess if he ever comes back........he'll hear that... ]