Talking to Lily Last Week (un: Nanashi)

[justonezero]

i was wrong. i really did talk to lily last week. or dv, or cubia, or whatever the name of that voice is.

when i said people should be able to return to reality, he said it was illogical to think people would be able to find happiness through others outside. and that it doesn't make sense for me to have hope for the world even though people outside hate me

he also decided that he likes me, so he decided to keep me. and since i called myself garbage, he said he'd fix me, but i'm so broken he wondered if it was better to break me down and make something new... i don't really know what he meant by those.

before he stopped talking, he told me he was giving me a gift so i could know what true happiness is. i think that's why i forgot how much people in reality hate me. ...i think he wanted to show how much happier i'd be if i stayed in the game and forgot about the outside world. but now that i remember it all, i don't want to stay here. so i guess that didn't work.

did anyone else who talked to him lose something too? and has it come back yet?

Comments

[justonezero]

no, i still think he did it himself but lily's an important friend/family member to him

people can be nice and still do mean things. everyone has a reason for what they do. that's why people are amazing! everyone has a story and a life no one else can fully know. that's what i love most about people (●'◡'●)

i don't fully understand why he did it. and maybe i never will. and it's a little scary to think about. but it's ok. i don't have to understand to care.

[aphonik]

if he considers that thing a friend he needs more help than a bit of 'love n friendship' is gonna give him

ok well when he decides to break something of yours next over his deranged ai fixation maybe itll knock some sense into you cuz right now youve got a deficiency

somebodys gonna kick the crap out of you if you dont learn to tell people to fuck off or whatever

[justonezero]

people already kicked the crap out of me, but they stopped when i didn't fight back

[And also smiled through it and freaked them out.]

but i'd prefer not to get hurt, so i'll try to avoid it. i still want to be friends with him though!

[aphonik]

who does like getting hurt, genius. besides masochists

well dont. or do, im not your keeper. but youre so dense its almost painful to watch. those are mutually exclusive things

[justonezero]

hahaha, people have told me that too.

i can't let myself get too hurt because a lot of people are relying on me and hector. but i'm going to keep trying to be friends, too.

[aphonik]

i cant believe im fucking saying this but get a therapist

and some self preservation cuz i dont think you have any of that either

[justonezero]

i have self-preservation!

and right now i'm a shut in so seeing a therapist is hard www

[aphonik]

if youre hanging out with the looney tunes squad no you dont

then pick up a phone

[justonezero]

can't, too busy being trapped!

and i think it's possible to hang out with people who are friends with lily without being in danger!

[aphonik]

yeah sure. we'll see how long that lasts

my bet is on their friendship going tits up in a week or less